The last entry I wrote was in August. That’s almost 6 months ago. For yet another time I let “busyness” hijack my plans. Although, was I really busy? Or maybe the right question is was I busy with what was important to me?
I know I got things done at work. I know I was serving my community. I was present at school activities of my children. I lobbied for issues on social media. Yet somehow, I still feel I didn’t get the important things done.
What are the important things? When I think about it, it’s building relationships and “wasting time” with people who are important to me like my aging parents, my husband, my daughters. It’s being mindful when I read emails and being present in the moment when I write my response. It’s setting aside time for myself, to take care of myself and get fit, read books, take up a hobby.
You know those three books I posted a picture of in my last post. They remain unread.
I was about 8 or 9 years old when my parents brought me to my first Life in the Spirit Seminar with a Catholic Charismatic Community. There were other seminars and communities that followed over the course of the years. It’s been about 30 years since I became part of the renewal movement but it has never been easy. Jesus wasn’t kidding when he said that in following him we would have to pick up our cross. Mine isn’t light and it only gets heavier over the years.
The past few years have been challenging, to say the least. And there have been times when I’ve thought about putting down that cross and just living life the easiest way possible. But no matter how hard things get, there is still comfort in knowing that I have a loving God who will wrap me in his embrace and who will provide me with all that I need even before I know I need it.
Last week I was supposed to serve at a prayer gathering (I wasn’t able to but that’s another story) and this song was part of the line-up. I haven’t stopped listening to it since. It’s on a loop on my Spotify account. I’m sharing below the YouTube video of Touch The Sky sung at Lakewood Church.
And this is the story behind the song…
...I found my life when I laid it down…I touch the sky when my knees hit the ground…everything I am reaching out to surrender…
Really, that’s been His message for me all this time. Surrender. Surrender not as giving up but acknowledging that He is in control. Even if most of the time it doesn’t feel that way.
It’s only a Tuesday! The week is still ahead of us and whether you have it all planned out or are dreading the tons of things you have to get done just have a great week. God has you covered. 😉